Well.. I am ready for a new chapter in my life.
I am ready to be a better person, a better friend, a better daughter, a better wife, a better anything and everything... I really want to try hard to be a better person. And there a few things I have to change in order to do that. I don't need to write them down here, because I know what they are and I can work on them if I try. I will need help, but that's what I have Kyle and my family for.
I don't want to become a hole of a person, who is just here and not accomplishing anything or feeling good about myself or my life.
I am not happy right now. I am not happy with myself mainly, but I am also not happy with where my life is, the chapter I'm in and trying to crawl my way out of it. I have every reason to be happy... There is not a thing in my life that is bad but somehow I just can't seem to be happy with it. So I guess that points right to ME. I am what is making myself unhappy.
I need to learn to be happier, appreciate more, give more, and stop being so selfish.
I really really really want to have kids, and I can't be this way when I have kids. I need to be loving and unselfish and willing to give everything to them, as well as Kyle and my family.
It is really hard to be happy every single day... No one in this world is happy all the time. We are entitled to bad days and good days, and that's part of life.
For today... I am going to be thankful. I am going to give back a little bit. And work one day at a time on the things I need to change. It will take time, but the destination will be worth it.
Happiness is a mood...Not a destination!
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