New Year's Eve 2010!

Today is New Years Eve 2010-2011.

I am spending the night with Kyle at home just relaxing and eating breakfast for dinner. We didn't feel like going out with the insane crowds, drivers, etc. It's a nice, quiet night at home and I'm hoping the new year starts and ends that way.. Peaceful, Lovely, and Successful!

I have PLENTLY of new years resolutions.. I have so many things I want to work on this year. I know this should be a work in progress every single day, but for some reason I just can't seem to make it work. So.. I wrote them down as resolutions and I hope I can stick to them.

This year I really want to work on myself, my body, my mind, my spirit, and just getting to know who I really am again. One of my main resolutions is to get to know myself better through writing in my journal (blog) more often (every day if I can possibly do that..). I feel like I've lost a big part of myself in nursing school... All I've become is a "nursing student" and nothing else. I don't even know what I like to do anymore... I just spend my days studying, studying, eating, sleeping and repeating. I've forgotten who I am and I feel a little lost. I want to know myself and what I really love and believe it. For a long time, it's been nursing.. I found passion in it.

Now I am just completely burnt out on nursing school and I cannot WAIT until it's over!!! I finish on May 19, 2011!! I am beyond excited and nervous about 4th semester coming up starting on Jan 21st! I am confident at times, and other times I really want to crawl into a hole and hide forever.. haha. But I am determined to finish and LOVE nursing!! I can't wait to be a RN!

Anyway, my point is.. That's all I've come to love in the past 3 years and it's been such a long journey but hopefully worth it. So when all is said and done with nursing school and I am graduated, I need to find other things to occupy my time (besides a JOB!) and get to know who I am better. I want to start working on these things TODAY - there really is no reason to wait anymore. I need to start working today and stay focused throught the rest of my nursing school, and there after work harder.

I really want a family someday hopefully soon - Maybe I will be pregnant by the end 2011?! Who knows... But I DO know that I need to be a better person, know myself better, know what I do and don't believe and prepare to be a good mother. I am definetly not equpit at the moment to be a mother if it were to happen today. I need to know what I will and won't put up with in life from other people and myself!

I know there will always be downfalls and setbacks and life NEVER goes as you want it to.. But I am ready for this new challenge and excited to work harder on being ME.

Here's to 2011.... It will surely bring times of excitment, joy, sadness, laughing and crying.. Bring it on!!! :)

Finally Finished with Finals!

YAY!! I finished finals on Wednesday Dec 15th by 5pm and headed to eat and get a drink with my buddies from school...WHAT A RELIEF! It feels sooo good to be done, at least for a few weeks!
We didn't get to find out our grades until Monday the 20th.. The waiting is so hard! I knew I was going to pass and be fine though... I DID pass my final and got to keep my B in the class! :) I'm happy for that.
Unfortunately, one of my best friends in nursing school, Kristin, didn't pass :( I'm soo sad for her because she worked SO hard and it really sucks. She didn't pass by 0.2%!! That's nursing school for you.. ugh!! I'm so sad she won't be with me and all of us next semester and through graduation. She will instead be graduating at the end of Summer.. Not that much long after us, but it still stinks she isn't with our class anymore :(
After all that was done and finished, Kyle and I flew out to see my mom, brother Mike and sister in law JaNae on Thursday until Monday! It was so fun and relaxing.. It was nice not to have to think about school, studying, or whatever! We helped my mom pack some stuff because................ SHE IS MOVING BACK TO RENO!!! YAY!!! We are so happy and can't wait!! She will be living with Kyle and I for a while. She plans to move back in the middle of January sometime...so soon! :) We can't wait to have her back!
On the other hand, my brother and JaNae are heading out to Kansas City, Missouri in the next week or 2 so he can attend AA school. We will miss them a lot but it's really exciting also for Mike! What we are going to miss the most is............................................... JANAE IS PREGNANT!!!!! We are beyond thrilled for them and sooo excited to be an aunt and uncle (besides Nicholas :) FINALLY!!! :)!! We can't wait to find out what the sex of the baby is and start spoiling it while it's still in the womb!! hahah..
Well, that's about all the big news I have for now.. :) I'm going to head off and enjoy my little mini vacation while it lasts! I have a huge list of things to do over break, including fixing up my resume and job hunting!! I can't believe I will be a RN in 5 MONTHS! I am soo excited and scared at the same time! I can't wait for this to all be over.. It's been a long journey but will be worth it in the end (I HOPE!).

PS...Sorry I am SO lame and never have pictures :( Maybe someday I'll have something exciting to write about WITH a picture attached!

Rocky Road

It seems like one nice, friendly patient is always counteracted by a grumpy, mean, ungrateful one... how ironic.
One more day of clinical and one more exam.. Next Wed is the final... AHHHH this week is killing me!!
I feel like half of my heart is missing right now.... just gotta keep swimming.

And there are my three totally random thoughts put into one simple blog. Goodnight.