I am spending the night with Kyle at home just relaxing and eating breakfast for dinner. We didn't feel like going out with the insane crowds, drivers, etc. It's a nice, quiet night at home and I'm hoping the new year starts and ends that way.. Peaceful, Lovely, and Successful!
I have PLENTLY of new years resolutions.. I have so many things I want to work on this year. I know this should be a work in progress every single day, but for some reason I just can't seem to make it work. So.. I wrote them down as resolutions and I hope I can stick to them.
This year I really want to work on myself, my body, my mind, my spirit, and just getting to know who I really am again. One of my main resolutions is to get to know myself better through writing in my journal (blog) more often (every day if I can possibly do that..). I feel like I've lost a big part of myself in nursing school... All I've become is a "nursing student" and nothing else. I don't even know what I like to do anymore... I just spend my days studying, studying, eating, sleeping and repeating. I've forgotten who I am and I feel a little lost. I want to know myself and what I really love and believe it. For a long time, it's been nursing.. I found passion in it.
Now I am just completely burnt out on nursing school and I cannot WAIT until it's over!!! I finish on May 19, 2011!! I am beyond excited and nervous about 4th semester coming up starting on Jan 21st! I am confident at times, and other times I really want to crawl into a hole and hide forever.. haha. But I am determined to finish and LOVE nursing!! I can't wait to be a RN!
Anyway, my point is.. That's all I've come to love in the past 3 years and it's been such a long journey but hopefully worth it. So when all is said and done with nursing school and I am graduated, I need to find other things to occupy my time (besides a JOB!) and get to know who I am better. I want to start working on these things TODAY - there really is no reason to wait anymore. I need to start working today and stay focused throught the rest of my nursing school, and there after work harder.
I really want a family someday hopefully soon - Maybe I will be pregnant by the end 2011?! Who knows... But I DO know that I need to be a better person, know myself better, know what I do and don't believe and prepare to be a good mother. I am definetly not equpit at the moment to be a mother if it were to happen today. I need to know what I will and won't put up with in life from other people and myself!
I know there will always be downfalls and setbacks and life NEVER goes as you want it to.. But I am ready for this new challenge and excited to work harder on being ME.
Here's to 2011.... It will surely bring times of excitment, joy, sadness, laughing and crying.. Bring it on!!! :) 
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